Do you ever question your faith when you feel afraid? I think we are led to believe that when we fear, our faith is weak. But I don’t think this is so at all.
We live in an imperfect world, and this world can be quite a scary place. So many disturbing things constantly happening bringing great distress and worry.
We are human with many emotions and one of those feelings is fear. It serves its own purpose in keeping us grounded in what we determine as safe or not, but it can also become quite overwhelming and bring deeper questions when we ask ourselves as to why we fear what we do, making us feel weak in those fearful places…especially when it comes to our faith.
For God tells us to “fear not” and to trust Him, but He also understands that fear is a part of the journey here and uses our fears as a way to come closer to us, knowing we will always be faced with things that trouble our souls and cause us to occasionally panic, no matter how strong are faith and belief is.
Each year when I schedule my annual mammogram, no matter how hard I try to not be afraid, I am still filled with those fearful emotions. All of the what if’s and unknowns scare me to death, for I once had to go through a biopsy procedure that truly frightened me in ways I wasn’t prepared for or ever expected.
And though I consider myself a person of great faith, I still fear this exam every year. The fear while I wait for the result and all that result “could” bring, that would turn my whole life upside down on a dime…into something entirely different with many more fears to face.
And even though I know deep in my heart that God will be with me through anything… I still feel afraid of all those “What If” possibilities, and then feel ashamed and condemned in the belief that my faith isn’t strong enough.
But then I realize, that even Jesus was afraid when He knew His death was inevitable. He shed fearful tears and even pleaded with God for a different outcome, as he prayed in the garden before His crucification…because Jesus was human and felt this same emotion. Though He had great Faith and trusted His Father’s plan…the same God who is also a Father to us… He was still afraid.
And I don’t think that any one of us would question the Faith of Jesus, yet we do exactly that to ourselves.
Fear doesn’t make our faith weaker, it makes it that much stronger, for as we walk in our fears, we grasp onto our faith that much harder.
We “do” things while being afraid, knowing that God is there with us to hold us up. He fully understands that we are human and envelops us with His Greatest love and compassion.
He doesn’t judge or abandon us when we are afraid, as we sometimes do to ourselves and each other, He comes closer and brings us more of this gift… His wonderful gift of faith and a door to walk through, to trust him more.
It is in these most fearful places, where we are given the opportunity to stretch our trust farther and wider, and find an even deeper faith. For God clearly promises us that it only takes faith the size of a tiny mustard seed to move mountains, and tells us that is enough!
The world will always come with things to fear for as long as we exist here, and God will always be by our side with more faith to offer, as we walk through those fearful places that tempt to scare the faith out of us.
This is the greatest testimony in faith and not a weakness…for to walk through the scary parts of life trusting Him is exactly what Faith truly is.
Psalm 23:4 “Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and staff, they comfort me.” NIV